Small Town Trip Pics

Jellico TN. town were my mom and grandparents grew up

We stayed in Williamsburg Inn hotel in KY. About 25 miles from their hometown. Lovely hotel Family friend who live near by

Me very tired....

Family

My grandmother "Mumzie" we came because she was being honored by her high schoool class of 1949

Bill, Jackson,- 6 Months, Brady 3 Yrs, Jocelyn, 4 Years.

Jackson again

Jellico High school Audtioum



I was not feeling well, but it was still a good trip.

Cute ducks at the local park.

Fall leaves are ahead of us by a couple weeks

More than a book!

It is Not Just a Book
By: T.J. Ellis
September 1, 2008


It is more than book of fairytales or fables.
It is more than just a bestseller upon a bookstore shelf
It’s not just historical record or point of debate
It’s not a mere legend, as many might say.
It’s not just another book full of opinions written by noble people.
It is the Word of Life!
It is divine it is flawless.
It will stand the test time!
It provides hope to the weary soul.
Only these words can refresh hearts grown cold.
It does not sway with the way the wind blows.
It brings rebuke to the wicked, and comfort to mourners.
It contains the Good News!
It crosses racial barriers and political views.
No other book has such saving power.
Never have there been such words of hope in such a dark hour!

Celebration & Delight filled living Part 1

Hello,

Glad you all enjoyed the freckled Lemonade post! Good news my mom got her drain tube out on Friday, and right now they don't believe she will be needing additional surgery! Thank you for your prayers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please praise God with us!!!!!!!!!! She will return to work for a few days on Wed before fall break begins!

I know I have made mention of the word delight before, but think about the word for a minute. We have discovered that God delights in us, but what about us, where are we to find our delight? I don't know about you, but I often find fleeting delight in food, desserts movies, and relationships. I say fleeting because it never last. www.dictonary.com defines delight this way: a high degree of pleasure or enjoyment; joy; rapture. Honest confession from me, I have not been delighting in the Lord as much as I have been other things. I want to delight in the Lord, he alone can satisfy. So my question to you readers is what are some ways that you delight in the Lord? What does the phrase delight in the Lord mean to you? For you what does that look like? How do you make the Lord your delight? Ps. 37:4 " Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." I only want to focus this post on the first of the verse to start with, because I believe it is the foundation for the rest of the verse. I pray I learn to delight more deeply in the Lord. Thank you in advance for your responses! God is indeed so good!

Freckled Lemonade in honor of Dee!

Here it is...

This is supposedly The Red Robin Recpie, but I do not make that claim. It is really yummy @ Red Robin, I'll try to post the link another day!

Red Robin Freckled Lemonade

1/3 Cup frozen sweetened sliced strawberries, thawed1 Cup lemonadeCrushed iceGarnishLemon wedgeFill a 16 ounce glass with ice. Spoon strawberries with syrup over the top of the ice.Fiill the glass with lemonade.Add a lemon wedge and serve with a straw.Freckled Lemonade by the PitcherAdding sliced fresh stawberries and/or a few slices of lemon to the pitcher is a nice touch.2 Quarts Minute Maid Lemonade2 Cups frozen sweetened sliced strawberries, thawed Crushed ice1 Cup sliced fresh strawberries (optional)Lemon Slices (optional).To make by the pitcher (2 quarts): Add thawed strawberries and syrup into pitcher. Add crushed and sliced fresh strawberries, if using, to pitcher. Add crushed ice and gently stir in lemonade

Just a fun filled day!

Hi,

Today mom and I went a got our flu shots then we went clothes shopping and then got a snack @ the food court at the mall, went shopping some more. I got a nice top, and a cute brown sweater! I love sweaters! Mom visted the book story though I didn't go in because I know I could never resist buying something. We then met Jenn & Michelle @ Red Robin, there I ate my favorite chicken Tortila soup, and drank freckled lemonade! I noticed today how much weight mom has lost, but I also noticed how well she is doing, and how much fun she is having! I can hardly believe she will go back to work to a new job soon. Thank you for all your prayers! They are still keeping a close on things, but God is so Good!

Yes, there is still a writer inside me

I Saw Your Love
By: T.J. Ellis
September 27, 2009


I saw your love today as the wind blew across my face.
I heard your love in the melody that came as a soft whisper.
I touched your love as I witnessed the smile on a child’s face.
I saw your love through the beautiful sunshine.
I heard your love through the advice of a stranger.
I touched your love as I touched your creation.
I saw your love in the stroke of a paint brush.
I heard your love in the stillness of night.
I touched your love as I smelled the roses.
I heard your love in the form of laughter so sweet
I touched your love through the touch of human flesh.
I saw your love printed as a declaration, in words of red.
I heard your love through the singing of birds.
I touched your love, as I held a tiny sliver cross.
I saw your love through the kindness of a young man.
I heard your love through a simple prayer.
I touched your love as I touched the edge of grace!

Sweet truth!

Hi Bloggers:

Hope you are doing well! I'm having a good day! I am very glad it is suppose to be sunny tomorrow, it has rained for 2 weeks in Chattanooga TN, but thankfully we have had no major flood damage at our house. I am trying to catch up on your blogs. This past week was rather busy for me with AAA two days a week, 4 birthdays, visting with my cousin Jocelyn who is going to be at DisneyWorld for her fourth Birthday this Wed.
There is a lot I want to write about, but I don't have time right now, just wanted to say hello!
I am just going to quicky tell you that God reminded me recently that He can handle me! I know that sounds funny, but you know how sometimes we can be afraid of letting people know us for fear that if they really knew us they would run away? I have been feeling that way a lot, and it was so freeing to sense God saying Teej you can't scare me away. I'm not going anywhere. I love you! I accept you! What freedom there is in that truth.

Movie, Elvis's Brother, and God is there!

Hi Readers:



Hope you had a great weekend! I have had one of the best weekends in awhile. Yesterday I went to see Julie & Julia the movie! It was very good, I admit I really didn't expect to like it, because I am not into cooking, but it was funny, and contained a modern day love story as well! It also tells a story of a blog, by an every day woman! Then, today I was able to go to church for the first time in a month. We had a guest Evangelist for our church rally day. His name is Rick Stanley and he is the brother of Elvis Presley! He has amazing testimony! He a very humble man! It was truly a treat to hear what only God could do in his life!



Speaking of God doing a work.... God is teaching me a lot right now, but it is hard to process much less to write about at this point. I am sure you are familiar with the lyrics "All I have in your Lord, is more than enough for all of me! (SONG MORE THAN ENOUGH) It isn't until we are called to truly lay down our comforts and false idols, that we ever really know that the God we talk about really is more than enough. Sometimes we willingly offer our idols, while other times we find that in those moments when are too weak to surrender, and so God does a kind of stripping away of our safety net, which then causes us to honestly explore the question, Lord are you really? Can I really trust you with everything? In the past 2 years God has stripped away most of my false safety nets. Actually, he first removed my false sense of worth as an over achiever student 5 years ago, Then, he removed not just one but 3 friends who made me feel safe and loved. Then He removed my mom's health, not once, but twice. I still wait for healing in my relationship with a family member, and there seems to be no end to the strain in sight. God is the one who gives and the one who takes away. I will admit I wrestle with anger for the taking away part, but as I work through this, I am reminded that He Jesus is the source of everything! He has never owed me anything, and everything I have comes from his hand! Everything I'm given has been entrusted to me, based on nothing I deserve. He is the hope that does not disappoint the friend that never leaves. The refuge that does not crumble! The Father who does not ignore! Mary told Jesus that if He had been there, her brother would not have died, but Mary quickly saw that for the glory of God, Jesus waited and came at just the right time. Maybe like me you wonder what God is doing, or you may you think, God where were you when my child or friend died or moved away? Maybe your question is where where you God when my marriage fell apart? Where were you when my job fell through? Where where you when I was hurt so bad? Jesus was there. Yes, we wonder why an all powerful God would just be there waiting, instead of acting, but Jesus is there to minster even as the questions come, even as we wonder and prayerfully wait. He is with us even though.... The victory is ours, the comfort is ours, The hope is ours! The glory is His!

Relational Savior & Prayer Requests

Hi Bloggers:

I cannot begin to thank you enough for your encouraging comments in response to my last post! Thank you for such compassionate and truth filled responses. God has been answering your prayers. Speaking of prayers would you join me in praying for a couple of families?

1. Please pray for my cousins: Chris, Christy, and Trey. These siblings just lost their mother very unexpectedly. The funeral is tomorrow. They live in Cochran GA. Trey is in college and today is his birthday. Both Chris and Christy have spouses of their own, as well as 5 children if you count the grandchildren. Please pray for comfort and peace as they sort through all this.
2. Please pray for Beth-OneBlessedNana- A blogger and pastor's wife whose church is under spiritual attack. Please also pray for her and her family, that God will protect them and bless them.
3. Please pray for Sandra my friend who has endured Chronic pain who was preparing for major surgery, but it had to be put off, because she has shingles for the 3rd time.
Thank you so much!

I hope you all are having a great Labor Day! I was thinking today, how great it is to have a Savior who is relational! He became one of us, so that one day, we could be like him! He faced loneliness and sorrow, injustice and rejection. Jesus understands! He overcome death for us! www. bibleresources.com Heb. 2:18 "For since He Himself was tested and has suffered, He is able to help those who are tested.
Wherever we are on the road of life, Jesus understands! Your responses and prayers inspired this post!

Coming Clean!

I am not sure if this post is for my readers or for me but I need to do this. I have struggling for weeks on and off with my relationship with God. I don't know if it is apathy or hardness or what? I desired so much that the trials God has allowed in our lives recently would draw ever closer to God, and there have been times when this has been the case! I just cannot figure out when it was that I became inconsistent? Was it when mom had surgery all the chores or was it the craziness of it all? Did it begin then? Is it the constant list of excuses or the endless questions that continue to linger in my head in recent weeks. Questions that would cause most reasonable people to wonder if I am a christian at all. OK so, I know that's a bit extreme, but you get the idea. One thing I know is things need to change, more than that, it has to change! The one thing God continues to impress upon me is a word that I posted more than a month ago. Prov. 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Do not rely on your own understanding. I am finding that the first step to learning to trust God and love God more is to admit my lack of trust. Before you pounce on me for typing that, I know that God is worthy of not just my trust, but my ongoing praise. He has carried my family ever step of the way, and for that I will give him praise!!!!!!!!! The truth is though, I am plagued with doubts and fears at times waiting for the other shoe to drop. Wondering why some get permanent healing, and then others only get healing for a little while. There are lots of others who don't get healing they long for until heaven, and then the hurting continues for their loved ones. You might wonder why I would be wrestling with these questions now, when all signs point to my mom's cancer being gone. I cannot give you an explanation, because I'm searching for one as well. There is a part of me that wonders, if God will somehow punish me or mom for my lack of belief that I've tried so hard to keep below the surface. I know no matter how messed up, I am, God is still God, and it's time to stop running from the truth, and run into the arms of Truth HIMSELF! Thank you for letting me write out loud!

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Setback with Mom, but she is improving!

Hi EVERYONE;
August 26th
This is T.J. Mom had to return to the hosptial last night, because she was very sick, and was having a high fever. It turns out she has an infection in the lymph nodes of the incesion in her leg, but she does not have feeling there, so she did not know. They drained a lot of fluid today, and she sounds better today. They are giving her lots of meds. Sorry I have not updated sooner, but I've had a bug, and been out of it. Thanks for your prayers!

T.J. M'S daughter
Friday, August 28, 2009 3:27 PM, EDT


Hello,

Mom came home from the hospital late last night She is doing very well. She is eating well, and up and moving about though this takes great effort. She wanted me to tell you that she already has fluid building up, one of the doctors said they may have to go back in surgically to insert a tube, in order for the fluid to drain as it should. They are going to try and hold off on that until next Friday to see if this will be needed, because that is when her next appointment is. It may have to be done sooner, if the fluid does not drain properly. It is my understanding that too much fluid in her leg can cause infection, especially since she does not have feeling her upper leg, where they did surgery. So we would ask for your prayers in this matter, but this is a far more common problem than the previous ones she has endured. Mom and I have sat face to face today, and been able to chat which is such a gift from God! She is alert! Please don't misunderstand, she does tire easily, of course, but she at this point very improved and we praise God! I am hopeful this is a real turning point! Again, her appointment is Sept. 4Th. Thank you for your prayers and loving support!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so proud of our Mom!
T.J. on Madeline's behalf)


Hi Gang! I know you are probably ready for some posts that don't involve Mom's health, but since you all are praying, I still need to post these for awhile! thanks for bearing with me!

Urge to blog....

Hi Bloggers:
I warn you that I don't know how this blog will turn out. Good news mom is home from the hosptial! She is groggy and weak but home. Thank you for your prayers! I want you to know God is providing in all this! He is faithful! My grandmother who we live with fell and dislocated her finger. I have not felt well today. One of my aids was sick when sick last night, when she came, she said it was probably food posioning, but I'm just not at all sure. I'm not usually parnoid about sickness, but today I am. I actually was mad that she came and exposed my family and I to possible sickness right now. I know she probably meant well,
but....
I cannot seem to shake this anger I've been feeling lately, and yet there are streams of thankfulness as well. I have moments of numbness and just exagustion, but then I think where is this coming from it isn't as though, I'm working or going to school right now. I am having doubts about my blog content too as well since my blog was intentded to honor the Lord, and I am not sure that is what this blog is lately. Anyway thank you for sticking with me, I will one day be able to vist your blogs regularly.

3 in 1 Rollercoaster update on mom!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009 6:49 PM, EDT

Hello family and friends!

This is not the update that I expected to be giving you today. I have finally been able to get in here with the help of a good friend to update this page. Mom went to the doctor today expecting to get her staples out but for the last couple of nights she has had low grade fever, chills, and a large amount of bleeding from her incision site in her abdomen. They did a CT scan and decided that it would be best for them to do exploratory surgery to find out the cause of the bleeding. The doctors took her back to surgery at 7 minutes after 6. I am told that the surgery will take 1 to 2 hours and then she will be in recovery. The doctors sayshe will be in the hospital for 3 to 5 days. It is possible that the bleeding could be caused by stitches being torn or coming out or it could be something else. This is why the surgery is so important, to find the true cause of the bleeding. Margaret and Mumzie are at the hospital right now. I have had a special friend stay with me and now my assistant is here and available until late in the evening. I may not be able to update again this evening but I can put my number below if you wish to call or you can wait and I will do my best to update first thing tomorrow. God has been faithful through this whole process and even now His grace is sustaining us. I know that you will be in steadfast prayer and for that we thank you.

T.J.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009 8:31 PM, EDT

hello
I just wanted to quickly update you to let you know that mom is through with surgery. when i talked to my aunt last she said that mom was in recovery. She also said that the doctor was pleased with the outcome and is glad they were able to catch it early. They believe that at least on of the stitches got infected this is really all i know at this point. thank you so much for your prayers please keep praying. We are thankful for the victory we just had.
Thanks,
T.j.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009 12:46 PM, EDT


Hi All:

I am sorry I am only now updating, but it's been a busy day already. Mom did well last night. She is pretty out of it today,because she was nauseated really bad, so they gave her finagrin. She has waked today with the PT. I do have more info for you on what was actually done last night. They repaired a stitch that popped out, and had infection, which they think happened from having to cough. The doctor has placed permeant stitches on the inside. She is on a liquid diet, but that should only be for today. She is antibiotcs. The best of today was that I got to talk to mom on the phone for a few minutes. I was at AAA yesterday when all this happened, so it was kinda a lot to take in all at once. I don't know what I would have done, if my friend Courtnie had not stayed with me, because there was not time or a way for me to get to the hospital. God took care of every detail. Thank you to each one of you for all you've done!


Thanks,
T.J.
Thursday, August 20, 2009 6:29 PM, EDT


Hi All:

Mom has been up today! I talked to her a little bit ago, and her voice is so much stronger! She requested Chicken & rice for supper. She is off of most of what meds they have had her on. She was on round the clock antibiotics yesterday, 5 bottles worth. Justin visited her for a good bit of time today. It is looking like she might come home tomorrow!!!!!!!! I have not seen her since Tuesday. God is teaching me a lot about faith right now, and shown me how much unbelief is in my heart, He has ministered to me in so many ways today, and I know it is because you've prayed! I look forward to the day when my mom can update for you herself, as I know it will be a blessing to you all! I must be a broken record, but thank you so much for your love and support!
T.J.

Thank you bloggers for your prayer! Sorry I have not posted all this sooner it has been crazy!!!!!!!!!!! GOD IS ON HIS THRONE!!!!!!!

Another update on mom.... tough one for her...

Hi Everyone:

Mom has not had a good day. She has not been comfortable whatever position she is in. She has had some nagging, but normal problems that go along with adjusting to life with a colostomy bag. I can tell she really wants to be able to do things, but her body will not allow it. The process of waiting has never been easy for mom, but she is being better about it than most people would be. She will get her staples out Tuesday. I know she wants to update for you all herself, but of course is just not feeling well enough yet. She enjoys your comments. She has numbness in the top of her leg, which doctors say could be short term or long term. The doctors told her this could be a possibility. God is faithful! Thank you for all you done. Please pray the healing process will go by fast for mom. You know how positive mom is; please pray with me that God would give her strength as she recovers. That God would protect her against discouragement. I’m asking him to give her grace for each moment. That she would feel free to vent in the tough times, and receive understanding. We are so proud of her. It is more than understandable that this process would be frustrating for her. She is laying in my bed in hopes that my hospital bed will be more comfortable. Thanks for reading! Each day will bring improvements. Thank you again! Our family is thankful for your kindness and support you’ve shown through prayers, flowers, food etc. God’s mercies are new each day
T.J.

Praise Report 2 She is home!

I just wanted you to know, in cause you have not heard that mom is home!!!!!!! She got home around noon today, and was very please with all the flowers, gifts, plants, etc many of you have given and sent to her. Thank you! I just saw her home for the first time since she she got home about an hour ago. every one insisted I go to AAA as usual, and I did, because the minstry is like second family to me. I could hardly wait to get home to see mom though, so I signed out a bit early. She has slept many hours since being home. Justin put Macy the dog on a leash so mom could pet her. Macy was so sweet with mom, and I am sure she was great medicine for mom too. I know I would have cried if I had witnessed the moment. I don't have much news at this point. I'll update as the process continues. I believe mom is so happy to be home, and we are so happy too! Please keep up those prayers and praises! Thank you all for everything!!!
T.J.
Hi Bloggers: Above is the lastest update! Thank you for your prayers and support! We are one step closer to "normal" Miss you guys!

Praise REPORT and continued prayers!

I am so excited to write this post for you all. I just talked to mom on the phone and she said the pathology report came back and the cancer is gone! Let me type that again so it will sink in better. They were able to get all of the cancer, only one lymphnode came back as cancer and it is now out.If Mom is able to eat solid foods between now and tommorow she will be able to come home at some point tomorrow. We are all so excited to have her home and can hardly wait for tommorow to come.Thank you so much for your continued prayers throughout this process.We are praising the Lord for this incredible news. We still know that there are hurdles to climb and recovery that still needs to take place. Hopefully if there is additional information to pass on to you I can do that once I talk to Mom further. She is now taking a nap and Mumzie is tearfully rejoicing. My friend Michelle and her adorable son Alex are spending some time with me today and it was wonderful to hear such good news with her. None of us have a guarantee of what tommorow will bring as far as this life goes, but I am reminded that we always have HOPE in our Lord Jesus Christ. We hope you will join in the celebration wtih us and continue praying for mom as it is still a slow process. We are thankful for all of you.
T.J.

Steady Progress....

Hi All:

I wanted you all to know Mom slept from 10 PM to 2:00 AM, which in the hospital is pretty good. She no longer has a pain pump which I’m sure she will miss, but she will take pains meds by mouth. She continues to show improvements a little every day. She wanted my aunt to bring my hair rinse tray board, so she could wash her hair. Mom has always been one of those people who want to wash her hair every day. Her best times surprisingly seem to be mornings, as she of course tires easily. By the time I got there last evening she was wiped out. She walked a longer distance on the walker yesterday, and her catheter has been out a couple days now, so that increases to the amount of walking she does as well. If I didn’t mention it before her epidural is out. One of her drainage tubes was removed, she has two still in. Has already walked today. She ate grits this morning. She has started to have some visitors for short periods of time. I say short periods, because sometimes it takes energy to talk, if she has had a busy or difficult day. The smallest tasks take big effort, but she is improving! God is faithful! My aid was kind enough to type the update yesterday for me. Our Dad’s sister is being very kind to come visit me today as she and her Son my cousin visited with Mom & Justin at the Hospital last night!. She and her family live near Macon and are some of the most generous people in the world. Thank you all for your gifts, cards and most of all prayers. I’ll update again soon
T.J.

VICTORY IN JESUS ONE STEP @ A TIME!

Mom made it through her 7 hour surgery Monday. THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS! HERE IS TODAY'S UPDATE THANKS!

Hello All:

I apologize for the delay, today is the first day that I’ve been home for any length of time. Mom went to her own room yesterday. Yesterday was not a good day for mom. The first night she had tingling and numbness in her legs which is a side effect one of the medicines in her epidural, so they were not able to get her up yesterday due to that, and low BP. They changed her med, so that problem was solved. Praise God. Yesterday when I saw her she was very confused, but this of course is very natural for the amount of meds she has had, but glory, I’m so thankful she has meds! Yesterday her nurse commented about how mom has not complained one time about anything. I smiled and quickly said, no she never has been one to complain, at least not on the outside. That is God’s power and grace, and evidence of your prayers and her faith. Today mom had a rough morning with nausea and pain, but she has had a better afternoon. Last night she slept well until about 4:30, when her pain meds were nearly out, and after that she slept until 7:00 AM. She still does not talk much which is totally understandable, but she is more alert. She requested her cell phone, and to stay by herself tonight. They are still suppose to get her up out of bed tonight, and we all dread it for her, but know it must be done. I have not seen her today, but tomorrow after my shift at AAA I will spend the evening with her, and I look forward to seeing her improvements since last night. Most of the family ate dinner together at the hospital last night, and we will have funny stories to tell mom when she comes home Thank you for your ongoing prayers and support!
T.J.
T

preparing for mom's surgery,,,,

Mom's surgery is tomorrow @ 7 AM. I'M USING my grandmother's laptop, so i don't have long. It is hard to type. ('m in bed. long story. thank you fot your prayers! i will post ;ater.

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Before and After! My Bedroom Part 1

The teal is before the pink is after! Sorry the photos are dark. Butterflies is the new room theme. More later.......

Life List, Chosen Ones, and More...

Hi Bloggers:

Thank you for your prayers! Today, I want to do a couple things. A friend and fellow blogger inspired me to make an ultimate to do list for my life. Here I go, the only problem is I don't truly think half of it will happen, but I'll make the list for fun.

1. Go to Hawill

2. Have my first adult kiss.

3. Reconcile with loved one

4. Get a fulfilling job that pays reasonable.

5. Write a book and have it published

6. Lead Someone to Christ

7. Visit Fayetteville GA,

8. Meet Kirk Cameron

9. Go to DC.

10 Lay on the grass under the stars.

11. Read all of Karen Kingsbury's books

12. Have my own place

13. Be a public speaker.

14 Go on a cruise

15 Have lunch with Michael W Smith.

16. Sing karaoke.

17. Meet Mike Huckabee.

18. Host a formal party

19 Go on a cruise.

20 Have a daughter for a week.

21. Go to disneyworld.

22 Have a wedding/honeymoon/marriage.

23. Be completely content for an entire week 24/7

24. Feed the hungry children

25. Talk someone out of hurting themselves

26. Go to CA.

27. Fast

28 Meet Rick Warren

29Have a good looking guy tell me I'm beautiful, and know he means it

30. Go swimming again.

31 Learn to like Salad.

32 Hang out with John Erickson Tada

You know sometimes I think the things we think we want and dream about are often more fun in minds and hearts, than they are in life, I mean like the saying says the grass is always on the other side. It is weird, but sometimes I find that unfulfilled dreams can often bring me more joy than the reality not matching up with me ideals. Maybe that makes me totally crazy, but it makes me fantasy world far richer.

Next topic... Rejection-If you have lived hardly any time at all, then I know you have faced rejection either real or imagined or both. You also know how great and humbling it is to be chosen. I remember when I was chosen by my peers in high school to be a senior court attendant. I tried to keep my cool, but inside I was soaring. There has since been a debate, as to why they actually voted for me, but if nothing else, it was God's gift to me. What joy there is in being chosen. We are wired with a longing to be chosen! I have been reminded afresh what the Bible tells us about being chosen. The Bible tells us that God CHOSE us, we did not choose him! It also lets us know in Eph 1 that because God chose us, he also favors us. It is cool as I think it must be true that God not only loves me, but he actually likes me too. I have plenty of people who love me, but I often wonder how much they like me lol. Do you know what a huge deal that is? The same is true for all who trust in Christ. Christ both likes and loves us! Oh how I need the Lord to remind me when the darkness is so very thick. Rest in the realty chosen ones!

FYI The word chosen itself appears 123 times in the Bible Thank you for your comments!

I am so in love with Ryan PG13

I am in love with Ryan!!!!! Ok so I know this isn't my usual blogging format, but I needed a little fun! Hope you guys understand. You can see Ryan in the movie the propsal out now! FYI mom's surgery is planned for August 3rd 7 AM! I will have some more devotional posts as well as pictures of my new room.

I'd Rather Have Jesus!

Hi Blogging friends,

Thank you so much for your kindness and compassionate response to me regarding my last post. I have saved your comments, and will read and reread these. Glenda, Thank you so for the verses. Beth, I feel your prayers. Val, Thank you for such love and grace. I feel so loved! Dee, you are amazing! It seems like you have a window to my soul! Thank you All! I have however decided to delete my former post, so it will not have any way of causing visitors to stumble, as we never know how what we write might cause others to give into some form of temptation.

I thank you for your prayers. I am doing better today. I would love to have some wisdom to share, but I'm in a learning process myself at the moment. Mom is in good spirits as always, we will know more on Tues. Jenn will be home Wed, can't wait! I will ask though, do you find that God sometimes uses music to minster to you when other means don't seem to get your attention? I was listening to the Hymn I'd Rather Have Jesus, and it isn't like I hadn't heard it, but somehow it seemed to reach me today. So I did some research. www.allaboutGod.com

I’d Rather Have Jesus – The History I’d Rather Have Jesus is a song written by Rhea F. Miller with the tune written by George Beverly Shea. This poem, written in 1922, was left on a piano in the Shea home by Bev Shea who wanted her son to find it and change the course of his life. The words, I’d rather have Jesus, moved George so much and spoke to him about his own aims and ambitions in life. He sat down at the piano and began singing them with a tune that seemed to fit the words. Shea’s mom heard him singing it and asked him to sing it at church the next day. . I’d Rather Have Jesus – The Lyrics I’d rather have Jesus than silver or gold; I’d rather be His than have riches untold; I’d rather have Jesus than houses or lands, I’d rather be led by His nail pierced hand. Than to be a king of a vast domain Or be held in sin’s dread sway, I’d rather have Jesus than anything This world affords today. I’d rather have Jesus than men’s applause; I’d rather be faithful to His dear cause; I’d rather have Jesus than world-wide fame, I’d rather be true to His holy name. He’s fairer than lilies of rarest bloom; He’s sweeter than honey from out of the comb; He’s all that my hungering spirit needs, I’d rather have Jesus and let Him lead. I’d Rather Have Jesus – The Bible’s Support This hymn is about dedication and commitment. To follow after Jesus is costly. Matthew 16:24-26 says: “Then Jesus said to his disciples, ‘If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it. What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?’” I’d rather have Jesus than silver or gold. . . Philippians 1:21 reminds us: “For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.” I’d rather have Jesus and let Him lead. . . Philippians 3:8 says, “What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ.” I’d rather have Jesus than world-wide fame, I’d rather be true to His holy name. . . Praise God for the words of Rhea Miller and the caring of Bev Shea. Because of them, George followed after Jesus and we are blessed with the fruit. Hope this blesses you all, as it did me.

Update and Happy 4th!

Hi Bloggers:

Thank you for all your prayers for mom and family. We won't know the results of her biopsy or scan for a couple weeks. The scan didn't give her harsh side effects like before, so this an answer to prayer. The doctor says it will take a couple weeks to get over the biopsy. Thank you! I know a lot of my posts have consisted of this new development in our lives, I hope you understand. I will label the post, in case there are only ones or topics you wish to read.

Happy 4th! While mom has little energy she still wants to go to my Aunt's house tonight as usual. I am very thankful for those who serve our country to protect us. I am thankful for their families who sacrifice so much! As Christians we have more than one freedom to celebrate! Gal. 3:28 www.biblegateway.com There is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus. Enjoy your freedom, the price for it has been paid!

The first of many updates

Hi Bloggers:

Hope your week is winding up well! Thank you for your prayers for my mom. I have not heard anything yet. She has a caringbridge page, you can subscribe to for updates, if you wish. You do have to register though. The site is: www. caringbridge.org The page name is: Madelineellis I sense your prayers. God is good! More posts soon.

Cancer Back, and Prov. 3:5-6

Hi gang:

Hope all is well your way. We found out this week that my mom's cancer has returned. I don't know the extent of it yet. She is having a Pet scan on Thurs, and a surgical biopsy. I think I knew it was coming, and that is why my mood has been lacking. God has comforted me, and I know he will be faithful. I know we all have trials and we must cast our cares upon Christ. I do not know what you maybe facing in your lives, but I am reminded that we must not rely on our own understanding, but we must trust our God who understands all things! Prov. 3:5-6 Blessings,

T.J.

I''m enjoying your blogs!

From Bitterness to Thankfulness

Hi Gals:

Wow!!!!!!!!!!! So much to write. I want to begin with a thankful list. I know others do this weekly, but I want to do it now.

1. I''m thankful for God's grace upon my life I don't deserve to be his daughter, but I am.

2. I know it sounds funny, but I'm thankful God does not let me know what is going to happen before it does sometimes.

3, I'm thankful my stomach is intact today.

4, I'm thankful for a back up chair when my breaks down like today.

5. I'm thankful for running water, as I think about how Jenn doesn't have any.

6. I'm thankful for doggy kisses

7. I'm thankful my mom can get medical coverage.

8. I'm thankful my mom is here on earth.

9. I'm thankful my brother can go on the mission trip tomorrow.

10. I'm thankful for Michelle and the new bible study we are doing together called Me, Myself, and Lies

11. I'm thankful Jenn will be home in three weeks.

12, I'm thankful for Sandra Rose

13. I'm thankful for Dr. John Barber, and the depth of wisdom he has.

14. I'm thankful for the fact that sometimes long distance friendships really do work.

15. I'm thankful God is true to his promises. As you can see: I have endless reasons to choose thankfulness over bitterness!

I have been struggling with bitterness in life in general lately. It is amazing how when we choose thankfulness it transforms us, lifts us up. Christians most of all, have no shortage of reasons to be thankful. Does that mean I should go around pretending life is peachy all the time? No, the truth is there are days I wonder why in the world I am here? I often think wouldn't my life serve a greater purpose in heaven than here? I often feel out of place in this world. It isn't that there aren't wonderful things about this life, there are. Laughter joy lessons beauty, It's all here, but it is all perfected in heaven! It is tempting to think I am useless here. Yet I know God placed me here to glorify himself, and who I am to tell him otherwise. I am on the second of the new Bible Study, to be honest It hasn't really occurred to me much that God wants honor from my thoughts. My mom is having biopsies done, they found a spot, but the doctor things it's only scar tissue. Keep you posted. I've added some new music Jenn!

R&R PDL Devotional!

This minstered to me so much I had to post, and I'm going to spend time at his feet. Thanks Sandra!

Be Real and Be Relaxed With God
by Rick Warren

"Be still, and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation. I will be honored throughout the world" (Psalm 46:10 NLT).

Hurry is the death of prayer. If you rush through all your prayers, it will kill your prayer life.
I have a habit in my prayer life: before I pray any prayer, it is almost spontaneous that I take a deep breath. I just relax, settle down, and let go of any tension. Then, I'm ready to talk God.

So, when you pray, relax. Take a deep breath and try to forget anyone or anything that's around you and just focus in on God for a minute. Calm yourself down and get still: "Be still, and know that I am God!" (Psalm 46:10 NLT).

Jesus sat in Martha's house, but she was so busy, she couldn't stop to talk to Him and enjoy His company. Jesus said, "Martha, Martha! You are worried and troubled over so many things, but just one is needed. Mary has chosen the right thing, and it will not be taken away from her" (Luke 10:41-42 TEV). Mary chose to relax at the feet of Jesus, listening to him while "Martha was distracted" (Luke 10:40 NIV).

Be real and relaxed, "Go to your room, close the door, and pray to your Father, who is unseen. And your Father, who sees what you do in private, will reward you" (Matthew 6:6 TEV).

Quickie Silly Night time post!

A - Age: 26 B - Biscuits or Bagels: biscuits of course C- Chore you hate: Being peace keeper D - Dog's name: Macy my brother's dog E - Essential start your day item: Time alone with my Bible, uninterrupted F - Favorite color: Teal G - Gold or Silver: Sliver H - Height: Short, Short, I - Instruments you play(ed): None J - Job title: Job is a funny word K - Kid(s): 0 L - Living arrangements: Complex M - Mom's name: Madeline not to be confused w/ Madelyn. N - Nicknames: Teej, T, T.J. That girl in the wheelchair O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth, yeah several. P - Pet Peeve: People who ask how are you, but don't really care how you are Q - Quote from a movie: " Oh Capitan my Capitan R - Right or left handed: Right S - Silblings: Justin T - Time you wake up: 8:30 or Later U- Underwear: Overrated V - Vegetable you dislike: Most of these W - Ways you run late: Talk, or my mom X - X-rays you've had: Arm, Hips, Back leg foot Y - Yummy food you make: nothing Z - Zoo favorite: Otter`

I tag whoever reads this!

NEW Begining and Relationship effort

Hi Bloggers:

Hope your weekend is going well! Thank you so much for your kind and encouraging comments! I am doing well. Summer always seems to lift my spirits! I am so excited also, because my friend Jenn who comes home July 14th. Jenn is an amazing friend! I learn so much about what a Christian should be from her, and we laugh, and she is so much fun to be with! Please pray for her as she leaves Nepal and returns to America, that God will pour his love on her like never before! I want all of you to know how much it means to have blogger friends like you!

Mom is out of town for the day in Kentucky for a surprise party! It amazing to think about just a year ago, I wasn't sure she would live let alone be taking a trip! My heart overflws with thankfulness to my God! He truly heard my prayers, I have no promise that her cancer won't come back, but I am beyond thankful God has given her his healing! Sorry I guess it just hit me afresh! By the way, did you know that having an ongoing relationship with God, takes effort on our part? Hear me here, I'm not referring to a works based doctrine. What I am writing about is found in Hosea 6:3 Let us strive to know the Lord." HCSV) WWW.crosswalk.com We are of course saved by Grace Alone, which is something that overwhelms me! We must strive however to know the Lord to deepen our relationship with him, as well as our knowledge of him! We aren't surprised to know that sometimes our relationships with others take effort, but to be honest, I am not always willing to make the effort to deepen my relationship with God. The Creator of the Universe, made the greatest effort in all of history to pursue a relationship with me and you, and yet at times ladies, even this; is not enough to motivate us to put fourth the effort to pursue him. Okay this is from God, not me, because it is convicting me lol. We are redoing my bedroom, and it is like a new start for me. I won't give details as I want to surprise Jenn, but once she sees it, I'll post pics. Speaking of pics. Here are a few of baby Jackson and family. Hope you like my new blog layout, I may not keep it, as it more difficult to find things, but it does reflect me a bit more. Let me know what you gals think.

Covered by His Blood Warfare, and waiting!

Hello There:

       I am still in the blogging world!  Hope you guys are well!  I apologize for my absence from your blogs and my own.  You may have heard me say before that I've had some battles with depression/anxiety.   While I only had a few blue days this time, it was kind of  disappointing after the progress the Lord has given to me.  This time was different, I felt it was more spiritual attack than anything else.  I know it is not popular to say in this culture that there is Spiritual Warfare, but after speaking with my pastor and one person I greatly trust, I am convinced that it is biblical to believe spiritual warfare is in fact a real thing!  Please don't misunderstand, I don't mean I am demon possessed or anything.  In fact, I want to remind all that Greater is He that is in us than one who is in the world.  Paraphrase of 1 John 4:4  You see to be frank I let my guard down spiritually.  I got lazy and indifferent, apathetic.What I really got too comfortable, and it began to cause me to be prone to attack, but in recent days I have been reminded that Christ has secured the victory for me!  His blood covers me, and therefore God's eternal judgement passes over me, because my soul is covered by the blood of Christ!!!!!!!!!!   Wow!  What would it be like if we truly took hold of that truth!    

      I have been waiting for some time for God to restore a broken realtionship in my life.  I want something to happen, but clearly has  said to me you are to wait and pray.  My response has been Lord I'm tired of waiting and praying for something to change, but the truth is, I am called first to obey, and trust God has heard my prayer and will act in His time!   Are you tired of living an unfulfilled dream, or tired of waiting for God's healing hand?  If you are, I hope like me you will pour out your heart to your Abba Father, and ask him for hope and comfort as you wait upon our Great and Mighty God!!!! 

Thank you for your prayers!

Hi Bloggers:

        Thank you praying for Jenn and the people of Nepal.  Thank you for also praying for me.  I look forward to the time when I will have a lengthy amount of time to post, but I just want to say thank you, and I'm thankful for those who have put their lives on the line for the freedom and safety I enjoy!  I'll be back soon!

URGENT PRAYER REQUEST From Jenn

Hi Everyone:

    Hope you are well.  Sorry it has been a bit since I've been by, I'll talk more about that later, but rigjht now, I want to post an urgent pray request from Jenn in Nepal.  Most of you know about my friend Jenn, but if you don't let me know.  I'm pasting her most recent blog here.  Thank you!

ey guys. I had planned for my next post to be a copy of my latest May prayer letter which I just sent out in case you do not get my prayer letter saying the direction God is taking in my next steps-- but for now I am going to wait on that because I have a prayer request for you.

I am not sure how to write this so you guys wont worry, but I wanted to make sure to post something so you can pray, share with others to pray, and for you to know that we are ok in case you catch the news ( i bet you don't like when I start things out like that)

Today started out as a very normal day in church. I was super excited because Johnny, one of the team leaders from the team from liberty was going to preach and I have heard He is an awesome speaker. We were in the middle of singing How great thou art when I noticed someone come in and get Shyam. I did not think much about it until someone that I did not know with a motorcyle helmet who looked very obviously shaken came to the microphone. They stopped singing and in nepalee he shared that He was a member of the Catholic church up the road and the church had just been bombed and He was coming to warm the churches. Then He went on to say that other bombs had been planted in area churches. He was very obviously shaken up. He went on to say they believed that a Hindu extremist group had planted bombs targeting Christians. I must admit that is when my heart began to race and I begin to feel fear. But as quickly as that came, then an AMAZIING peace filled my soul. This is when your faith becomes real. In a moment like this you must decide is What I believe worth it? Is who i believe in worth it? You read about this in books-- but in a moment like this you must decide.

In that moment I decided without a doubt YES. What I believe is worth it. Who I believe in IS worth it. God is real and so is my faith. I had such a peace flood my soul. Shyam came to the microphone and we began to pray for those that were at the church. Then we continued singing How GREAt thou Art (in nepalee) In that moment again I could truly SAY HOW GREAT THOU ART-- that I serve a God who is Real and true and the only God who can make sense out of tragedy. I was amazed to see the reponse of the church as we continued worshipping. Then Johnny got up to speak and give His sermon (hard to give under these circumstances huh!) I will never forget His sermon. It was about 5 minutes worth before we had to stop-- but He read from 2 Thessalonians 1: 3(B) We ought always to give thanks to God for you, brothers,[a] as is right, because your faith is growing abundantly, and the love of every one of you for one another is increasing. 4Therefore(C) we ourselves boast about you(D) in the churches of God for your steadfastness and faith(E) in all your persecutions and in the afflictions that you are enduring.
The Judgment at Christ’s Coming 5This is(F) evidence of the righteous judgment of God, that you may be(G) considered worthy of the kingdom of God, for which you are also suffering— 6since indeed God considers it(H) just(I) to repay with affliction those who afflict you, 7and to grant(J) relief to you who are afflicted as well as to us, when(K) the Lord Jesus is revealed from heaven

He was about to expound on this when the police came and said for safety we must end the service. We ended with a quick hymn and dispersed. I was again amazed at the peace God provided.

It turns out the bombs that went off int he catholic church killed a 14 yaer old friend of one of our church members, a 30 year and injured many others. I had just met one of the catholic priests from there at a wedding wedensday. He is badly injured with His face partially blown away. Please pray for all of those involved. Please pray for those that committed this act. It is unconfirmed yet if other bombs were found, but no others went off praise the Lord. I truly believe God protected our church and it's people. All of this happened hours before another new comm*unist leader was inagurated as prime minister.

God is on the move here, and Satan is mad. But we know that we are ON the WINNING team.
We finished out a normal day. we went on with a planned soccer outreach with the liberty team. I know God got great glory as the liberty studetns shared the gospel with the team at 1/2 time. God is the victorious one. I am so glad that I have a faith in a God that is REAL.
Please continue to pray for nepal, those who were at the church today and for all the christians here. And please DON'T worry! 
Oh Lord How Great thou ART!

Thank you!

Thank you for your prayers!  I'm not there just yet, but I am doing better!  Thank you again for your support!  Here are some pics.

Not with it!

Hi gang: 

    Thanks for your comments.  I'm kinda sad right now, I'll post when I can.  I haven't forgotten you though.

Don't wanna be a "Fast Food" kinda whorshipper"!

Hello,

    I know it's rare I'm back so soon.   Do you ever find yourself wanting to write, but can't seem to make the writer in you come out?  I went to One Blessed Nana's blog today, and was so ministered to.  The title of her blog is: instrument For His Glory, and the title of the entry is: Is prayer Suppose to Be Hard?  I wonder how we each honestly would answer that question at different seasons in our lives?  

I was reading in Exodus today, when Moses went to tell the Israelites that God had heard their cries for deliverance from the Egyptians.   Their first reaction was to bow down in worship that their prayers had been heard.  This is of course what their response should have been, but before we applaud them, remember that a chapter later, they are confronting Moses and blaming him, for making their hardships worse.  What happened to them since they bowed in worship, and now their short lived act of worship has shifted, to an outlook of gloom.  Before I pounce on the Israelites, I need to look in the mirror, because I'm no different.   Some days, no sooner have I left a worship service where I truly worshipped, have I found myself complaining about something, or bowing down to worship the idols of pride or indifference or laziness.  Sometimes on the hand, I could learn a lesson from God's people, because even though they wavered, their first response was still worship, which is often more than I offer.   The Israelites wanted deliverance only if it came without struggle or suffering, they didn't understand that in the hardships they would see God's wonders and glory like they would not otherwise.   I have to tell you, I don't want to suffer, and hurt, and often I'm more concerned with deliverance from hardships than knowing God better or seeing God's glory.  I don't want to be a person of shallow or short-lived worship, but I have a long way to go, as I've been rather shallow.  In this country, we thrive on "quick fixes".  I love fast food, and I am bad about not waiting for food to cool, and burning my tongue.  I don't want to be called a fast food worshiper, or a shallow worshiper.  May God help us be true worshipers."   I'm preaching to myself, but can you relate?  Please go by and visit one blessed Nana, she has a great blog! www.instrumentforhisglory.blogspot.com 

Post 100!

Hi Gals:

     I am feeling better!  Thank you for the well wishes!   I am thankful you keep coming back.  I don't really have anything much to say, but I just have to say God is so good!  I think it is neat how God provides what we need.  Ps. 136:23  www.bibleresources.com 

He remembered us in our weakness.

         His faithful love endures forever.   

We were and are being pursued by God's faithful love, even our weakness.  He is All Knowing, and He does not forget He chooses us in our weakness!  That is something to be thankful for!  When everyone else forgets us, God Remembers us!  He Remembers you!  He loves us faithfully!   Thank you all for remembering my blog!

FYI: I was able to raise 550$ for AAA!  God is good!

Chattanooga Crud!, baby Jackson pics and birthday cake...

I have been in bed the last two days with the Chattannoga Crud!  I'll try to post by the end of the week.  Thanks for your comments, and Beth thanks for my prizes I love them! and Glenda thanks for my gift!  Here are pics of Cousin Jackson & my birthday too...

A birthday,A baby coming, Prayer request, and a delight filled promise!

Hi Bloggers:

       Can I just say first I'm loving the weather we had in Chattanooga lately, It has been in the low to mid 80's.  I love sunshine!  Can I also ask you all to pray for my friend Sandra who has been dealing with chronic pain for more than 8 years, and doctors have yet to be able to relieve it for any length of time.   She is in need of relief, comfort and hope, and is seeking God for his purpose in all of this!  She is an amazing encouragement to me, and a woman who loves God and others.  

    My family is celebrating my 26th Birthday tonight, even though it isn't actually my birthday until Wed.  I am totally fine with that as mom will take me out on Wed.  My little cousin Jackson will be born tomorrow, as they are doing a C-section.  Brady who you've seen in some of my pics, will have Jackson Graham as his little brother.  I'll post phots at some point, if I can.  

     I am going to share something with you that rocked my world recently.    The Lord delights in me!  I use to wonder what that was all about, when people said it, but this week, I found that to be true within his word.  Psalm 18:19 "He brought me to a wide open place; He rescued me because He delighted in me."  My friend Jenn use to talk about this a lot, but I admit I never really understood the whole concept of God delighting in us, but this truth comes right from the bible.   God rescued each of us, not because we deserved it, but because He created us, and chooses to delight in us!  The reality that God personally delights in us, should cause us to know we have great worth, and motivate us to make him our greatest delight!  I'm still soaking up the wonder and joy  that comes from this!  Since God,and Christ delight in you and me, we can have freedom and joy in living for Christ!  He delights in you today and always!  He cherishes you!  Need proof?  Look to the cross and the empty tomb, and you will know he delights in you!

By the way, I will be driving my chair on May 9th to raise money for AAA Women's Services.  The event was yesterday, but due to church event conflict I need to pick another day.  My goal is 500$ I'm 345$ right now.  I have another week to raise.  I have a widget that on my blog that will take you right to my fundraising page with more info.  Please prayerfully consider donating to help those in the midist of unplanned pregnancies, know they can chose life.   Every dollor helps!  I would encourage you to find out more about your local pregnancy center.  Thank you so much!