"The purpose of this blog is to share my journey from Head to Heart, and hopefully inspire others not to miss the Sunset moments in their lives. As the truth of God's love, makes way from head to heart- it makes it possible to embrace the Sunsets in our lives!" -TJ Ellis
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Friday, June 20, 2008
I will trust you for today!
The AAA prayer time on Tues. went well! It was truly encouraging to meet others passionate about prayer and AAA's Ministry. Thanks Michelle and Mary for coming. You guys know my mom has cancer, and I thank you for your prayers for her and us Here is her Caringbridge page www.caringbridge.org/visit/madelineellis We are all very encouraged by the ongoing support of so many!
Lessons I'm learning: Even when it looks like Jesus is sleeping thorough the storms of life, he is still protecting those he loves. Need proof??? Mark 4:35-39 www.bibleresouces.bible.com
On that day, when evening came, He said to them, "Let us go over to the other side."
36Leaving the crowd, they took Him along with them (Z)in the boat, just as He was; and other boats were with Him.
37And there arose a fierce gale of wind, and the waves were breaking over the boat so much that the boat was already filling up.
38Jesus Himself was in the stern, asleep on the cushion; and they woke Him and said to Him, "Teacher, do You not care that we are perishing?"
39And He got up and (AA)rebuked the wind and said to the sea, "Hush, be still." And the wind died down and it became perfectly calm.
40And He said to them, "Why are you afraid? (AB)Do you still have no faith?"
41They became very much afraid and said to one another, "Who then is this, that even the wind and the sea obey Him?"
Do you ever feel as though God is sleeping while the storms of your life are raging? Here is a reminder that God is not only fully aware of what's going on, but he is in full control as well. Most of all it is proof of his loving and watchful care.
Last night, I heard a still small voice speak to me. I told God I did not think my faith was strong enough to trust with "Everything", it when then I sensed the Holy Spirit saying all I asking you to do for now, is trust me with today. Day by day moment by moment choose to trust me with today. Will you trust him with today?
I've been tagged, but...
1. What was I doing ten years ago. High school... Probably thinking life was a big deal. Getting over a hip surgery. Hanging out at ChurchCoffeeHouse.
2 What's on my to do list today? write letters,, Make a call for AAA, Journal, catch up on e-mail, read the shack, pray some more and call Sandra.
Snacks I enjoy:
3. graham crackers, Mexican Cheese dip and chips, Cheez-it crackers, Anything sweet and bad for me.
Places I've lived: Daytona Beach, Chattanooga TN. In the womb, and the hospital as a baby for a while.
4.What would I do if I were a billionare? Find a cure for cancer, AIDS, Depression., and other illnesses. I would give money to the church, buy a whirlpool for mom and me. Take my family and friends to Hawaii.
5. People I want to know more about: Denzel Washington, My brother, Kirk Cameron, Joni Erickison Tada, David Ring.
6. Two things I have in common with Oprah? We are both misunderstood, We both can act like "know it all's"
7. You can tell a lot about a person by: How they welcome people who are new., their tone of voice.
8. Are you a yeller when you get angry? Not often, I have to be really made for a long time to yell.
9. Have you ever danced in public? Does a poll count? If I did you would hear about it.
10. What did I do to get my first detention? I didn't ever have that, but I got in trouble for leaving group without permission to leave.
11. Name 3 things about the town you live in: my church, my family is here, and its in the south, but not so much that it annoys me.
12. Name something unusual you carry wherever you go: I hope love.
13. My favorite website: right now... www.caringbridge.org/visit/madelineellis
14. What would my enemy say about me? I'm needy
15. Favorite childhood memories, Christmases, When my brother and I played as kids. Anything with my cousin Bill.
16. Not sure... I think God has is taking those away!
Now I'm told to tag people!
Sunday, June 08, 2008
A Love Better Than Life???
In the last week, every time I open my Bible the word love leaps out at me! It could be that God wants me to know his love is with me at this time, or it could be because of Jenn's new written Bible study-I think it is both. In Jenn's first chapter she directed me to Ps. 63. It was there I found Ps. 63:3 "My lips will glorify you
Because your faithful LOVE is better than life."(HCSV) (Note the capitalization of love is my emphasis only) I must say I both envy and agree with King David here. I envy him, because at a time when his life was being turned upside, and others sought to kill him, he spoke confidently of God's love as being better than life. I hope that when it feels like the world is crashing down around me, I will still be quick to say God's love is better than life!
Another way I've been looking at this verse is this, sometimes life is hard, and the last word we use to describe our lives is good. Sometimes life is not all a bed of roses, but even then, God's love is better than our life situations alone. Jenn reminded me in her Bible study, that every day I must choose to believe God has a love for me that is better than life itself! But then another question if I am honest comes to mind. What is it that makes God's love better than life? I have been mediating on one verse a lot since Monday. I've always loved it, If you reading this I bet you will too! Isa. 54:10 "Though the mountains be shaken, and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of be removed"
says the LORD who has compassion on you. God's love for his children will not fail, not only will it not fail, but it CANNOT Fail! That makes God's love better than life doesn't it?!!! God's love for Israel, did not waver even though their love for him always did. God's love for me does not waver or change even though both situations in life, as well as my love for him do. His love for us will not change or disappoint. His love for you will not fail, it is steady by his grace!. Enjoy that with me! Last, his love is better than life, because it is undeserved, and ever present. Thanks for reading! Topic to be cont.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Big Lips small heart
I'm here. Hope your summer is starting off well. I love to do lots of fun stuff in the summer! For example, staying up half the night reading novels, watching movies and TV shows I never what any other time of the year. I also love cookouts, and baseball games. If I may confess in the summer months I've been known to neglect my walk with God at this time more than any other season of the year.I need to allow God to enrich my summer with more of him than anything else. Take a minute and ask yourself what God desires most from you. The other day I came across a verse which might help in answering this question. Matthew 15:8 www.biblegateway.com These people honor me with their lips,
but their hearts are far from me." WOW I don't know about you, but that stung me! What do you think Jesus is telling us here? Is pointing out our that our words don't matter? No, because in earlier chapters, and other places in the Bible he says we will give an account for every careless word. Are you confused yet? Hang with me here. If God has our heart above everything else then what flows from our hearts will come out of the mouth, but what Jesus is speaking to us here, says to me that we can never impress God with our words, He sees beyond the formation of our lips straight into our hearts. My best Friend Jenn reminds me of this all the time. Even more, now that she is writing her new Bible study. We might have Jesus in our hearts as Savior, but if you are like me, so often he is not my first love! I don't know about you, but I need to offer God a little less of my lips, and far more of my heart. The Lord wants praise from our lips, but not without the love of our hearts first!
I am enjoying Karen Kingsbury's Ever After so much it's a wonder I can anything else. Please be in prayer there are lots of big needs out there. Blessings!
Friday, May 09, 2008
pointing to What or Who?
It is about time I posted huh? Where to start.... AAA's Walk for life went great! My total to date is about 440$ It was a sunny day. God blew me away! I am loving working with AAA more all the time. I love talking to the clients and caring about them. God has enabled me to place myself in their shoes and imagine where they are, and what they must be feeling. Then, after that we had my family birthday dinner, which was steak and shrimp. I got a flat screen TV. I am really loving it! Then on that Tues the 29Th, my actual birthday, my mom took me out for Mexican, another thing I love! Then, my dear friend Michelle made me an amazing Ice cream cake! Again I loved that! Most of all I love how many cards and calls I got from people I love! I sensed the love of God !
So what about my Title? I was reading today in John. I read about how John said he was sent to prepare the way for Jesus the Messiah. John knew his place, and he was content to be the one to point others to Jesus, and not himself! He knew he could not be their savior nor did he want to be, but he did desire to point them to the one true Savior! Jenn is teaching me that witnessing is about relationships and I am reminded that every day is a chance to be a witness even to fellow believers. I need to be witnessing to others, simply telling them what Jesus has done for me, and what he wants to do for them! What or who are we pointing them too? Col. 4:5 check it out!
Now, I am so excited about a movie coming out this fall starring Kirk Cameron. Find out more www.fireprofthemovie.com It is from the creators of Facing the Giants!
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Help-the beatles, belly troubles, and no good pride
We did not make it to church, today because I must have eaten something yesterday that really upset my belly because I was not in any condition to go anywhere after Brady's birthday party yesterday. Mom also had a migraine, because of the stress she has been under.
Anyway I enjoy the Beatles, and I like their song help. Why does this matter? Well here's why-God has shown me how much pride shows up in different ways in my life. Sometimes, it shows up in my envying others blessings or talents. Sometimes my pride shows up in forms of self loathing or discontentment, judgement of others just to name a few. My pride comes out ever time I look for something else to fill me other than grace, love, and spirit of God! I cannot do anything apart from Christ, so I wonder why don't I just rest that reality? It ALL comes back to pride.... Someone reminded me this week that God knows I'm only dust. He is knows without him I am lifeless literally and spiritually. He desires and expects me to fully depend on him! I don't have to apologize for needing the Lord! As a child of God, there is no such thing as self confidence, but there is instead something else, there is Christ Confidence. http://bibleresources.bible.com/passagesearchresults.php?passage1=isa.+50%3A7&version1=31&version2=49&version3=77 Isa 50:7 Because the Sovereign LORD helps me, I will not be disgraced. Therefore have I set my face like flint, and I know I will not be put to shame.
Yes, God is our help, but help implies that we can do something on our and we can't, but we can choose to submit our will to him, and we can ask him to enable us to abide in him. John 15. God is our help, but he is also worthy of my trust and my reliance! Jer. 17:7-8 He will firmly plant us if I will abide him, I have not been doing that well with abiding in my Lord, but I do pray his spirit will change me! Do you need help? If so. join me in calling on the One who is able!
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Waiting... An act of worship?
I've been trying to update forever! I am glad some of you have checked to see if I have updated. I'm sorry for my delay. Between church and AAA and family and prayer I've not been making time to write. When I finish this post. I will be praying for Nepal, Jenn and others there. Most of you know I've been trying to read the bible through for a year and a half, and last week, with God's help I did it! I have just become part of a small ladies prayer group, and I love it! God is moving among our church and his people! I am so excited!
So what about my title? Well, I have been thinking a lot about what God wants me to do. To be honest, I've not only been thinking about it, and praying about it, I've been worried about it. Like Lord I need to be doing more like working or going to school something! Just tell me... I've began a new bible study called Write His Answer for christian writers. If you write, or want to write, I recommend this study to you! I had to ask myself today, why do I want to do these things, Is it for the glory and honor of God? If it isn't, I don't need to do those things until it is about that. That is what I'm learning. It is possible to honor and worship God in the waiting and I can still be productive in the waiting. If my motive for wanting to go to school or working outside the house is just about getting money or a degree or proving to others or even myself I can do it then my motive is wrong. So everywhere I turn God is saying, be useful, but wait on me. God told Abramham to wait for his promise, and even as he waited God used him where he was, not where he would be.
I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you. Ps. 32:8 Ps.130:5-6 Isa. 40:29-31 29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint
I have more verses I'll post later. Does God have you in a season of waiting? Wait! Ask him to use in the now where you are, as you wait.
Monday, March 24, 2008
Friday, March 14, 2008
Birthday tributes!
Happy Birthday Jennifer Hand and Michelle Humbert!
We have had many great times together, and there are so many more ahead. The two of you are uniquely individually and separately special!
Jenn: I thank God that he put us together that day in Mrs. Sellers Biology class! I don't know where I'd be, or what I ever did before we met. I am a better person because of you! We have grown so much together. You have brought such joy and fun into my life! Before I met you, I truly don't think I had ever known what it meant to have a real best friend! The laughs and tears we have shared and shed so far, have enriched my life so much! From Healing Rain. to boys, birthday parties, puke, Bible Study, prayer, Lane Bryant, Underwear upon our heads, friends are friends forever, to drama queens and movie screens! I love you and I am glad God made you! I love you sister!
Michelle,
You will never know what a gift you are to me! My life would not be the same without you. I never knew it was possible to share the bond the two of us have. I admire you so much, and you've taught me a lot about trusting and believing God. You are a living example of what it means to walk by faith and not by sight The love within your heart could truly transform the whole world! You show such courage even in the darkest times. You beauty unfolds more with each day that passes! I love how you speak the truth to me. I love how you express the bold personality God has given you. I love the way you reach out to others and desire to love the Lord with all you are! I love our beth More pizza parties and our inside jokes! I love our fun addictions I love your joy for life, and most of all I love you and am so glad God made you, and uses you to show me what abundant life really means! Okay enough cheese more soon!
Jer. 1:5 Ps. 139 in honor of those above... I encourage you to drink it in!
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Video for Jenn! Starring Michelle Katy G, and T.J.
Friday, January 18, 2008
High Priest
I was reminded today that I have a High Priest who is more than able and willing to plead on my behalf to God the Father! I often picture Jesus dreading going before God to plead for me, but today, God showed me I was wrong! See for yourself! Hebrews 7-23-28. www.biblegateway.com Now there have been many of those priests, since death prevented them from continuing in office; 24but because Jesus lives forever, he has a permanent priesthood. 25Therefore he is able to save completely[b] those who come to God through him, because he always lives to intercede for them.
26Such a high priest meets our need—one who is holy, blameless, pure, set apart from sinners, exalted above the heavens. 27Unlike the other high priests, he does not need to offer sacrifices day after day, first for his own sins, and then for the sins of the people. He sacrificed for their sins once for all when he offered himself. 28For the law appoints as high priests men who are weak; but the oath, which came after the law, appointed the Son, who has been made perfect forever."
WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know how to even grab hold of that! Do YOU??? Jesus is forever my High Priest! He is Holy and Pure and blameless! He came for the purpose of atoning for my sin and yours and interceding for us!! This is what he lives to do, this is the very reason he came! We can have Jesus as our perfect Lamb and our Forever High Priest! He is able to completely save us, not just a little bit but completely! Not kinda, but fully save us! Is that cool or what!
I love you Jenn and we miss you lots! Can't wait to hear from you! Have a great weekend! Michelle hang in there!
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
God is so Good!

Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Faithful God, and New year Blues!
Happy new Year! I must confess yesterday the first day of the new year was a really down day for me. I see all these people who have what seem to be these exciting lives, and while I am happy for them, sometimes I wonder where I'd be and What my life would be like without Cerebral Palsy? Would I have my own house? Would I already have a college degree? Would I be engaged by now? Would I be married by now? Yesterday I found myself in tears. The questions swirled around in my head. I tried for so long to do everything I could to avoid such questions. It was probably just me having one of my girl days- I was also thinking how can I ask God to forgive me for failing him again. Then it hit me last night.... God does not grow tired! When I am faithless he is faithful for he cannot deny himself 2 Tim.2:13 God has no wickedness in him! Everything he does serves a purpose nothing he does is in vain! I was reminded again that while God does not remove the consequences of sin, his love and faithfulness to me and for me are not dependent on how faithful I am!
Last night as I finally got the courage to lay my heart out before God I was relieved to find him faithful! Not casting eyes of judgement, but his arms open wide with mercy. I began the day angry with myself, and yes I admit it, I just felt angry and I wanted to direct it at God. Partly because my time with God was interrupted by home health care after requesting they not come yesterday. Yes I was nice, and yes for those who don't know if my routines are changed, I often come unglued. I ended the day comforted by God. The great thing about God, is most people can't handle a pity party, but God does not move, he is right there waiting! He can handle it, because he is faithful! Where do you need him to remind you he is faithful?
Friday, December 28, 2007
May be a radom post
I had a nice Christmas though I had to miss most of the Christmas services, because mom or I stayed sick during two of the services. Christmas this year seemed more rushed than normal, but I still enjoyed it. I got a nice portable DVD Player from my aunt, a few christian T-shirts, a big makeup kit, a couple DVDs and an MP3 Player, which I have no clue how to work yet:D
I have never been one who liked change at all, but for once in my life, I'm longing for something new right now. No, not something materially new, but something different and exciting. I can never remember being bored as a kid, or an adult, but here goes.... My name is T.J. and guess what I'm bored. I want a revival in my walk with God! I want to love the Bible not just read it! I want to pray with power, not just pray. I want to be bolder! I want to wake up knowing I'm fulfill a special role in the universe!
Those of you who know me know I'm not typically a charismatic person, in fact, if my mom is reading this she is probably thinking What Alien has invaded my daughter's body! Isn't it cool that God allows us to put the past behind us and begin anew?Here is proof! Phil. 3:13-14 www.biblegateway.com (NIV) 13Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. God gave the Apostle a new beginning a new name even. He took Paul's past and transformed him into a great warrior for the cause of Christ!
He took Jacob's shame and we see Jacob too was given a new name! The woman at the well was told by Jesus to go and sin no more, and I believe scripture implies she may have done just as Jesus commanded her. Peter left behind his doubts and past failures to passionately follow the Lord after Jesus was crucified. I've never liked making New Year resolutions, but I am comforted to know that until Jesus returns it is not too late to have an impact for Christ that is fresh and new!Renew me Lord with passion for you in 08'
Saturday, December 22, 2007
The wow Factor of Christmas!
Well here we are three days away from what is the official celebration of Christmas! I find myself baffled by the miracle of Christmas! The Trinity is one of those Biblical concepts that just blows my mind! If I am not careful, I will become overwhelmed with the "how questions of Christmas! Almost more than any other season, Christmas reminds me of the bigness and greatness of God!
Can you imagine what it was like for Mary and Joesph as they held the very God who created them, in their very own arms? I cannot even begin to fathom the wow factor of that! The one who formed the stars and calls them by name, came to the universe he made, and came fully divine and fully human, in every way except that he is, he was, and he will forever be without sin! I admit I never really have been able to comprehend the fact that, even though man first saw Jesus in the flesh at birth, Jesus is, was, and forever will be eternal! Jesus has forever existed! I spent some time reflecting on that today. I could spend the rest of my life attempting to grasp and understand the wonder of the trinity or I can marvel at the the greatness of the one and only true God, and Savior! God is too wonderful, too awesome, too big, and too mighty to fully grasp his eternal greatest, but just because in my limited mind I cannot explain or understand everything about his nature, this does not mean I cannot or should not trust his wonders or celebrate his greatness!
John 1:1 Now that is something one ought to claim as a Christmas wow factor! "In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God." John 1:1 (NIV) Does this blow my mind? Yes! Do I believe it? Yes! Do I understand it in all fullness? No. Will I celebrate it? You bet! Check out the "Putting Easter back into Christmas" to hear the rest of the story. You can find that message at: http://www.brainerdhills.com/ under online sermons look at the resources section on the website.
I am reading a neat book called, Girl Talk, God talk. It shows the correlation of the lessons our relationships with female friends can teach about the character of God! Merry Christmas- I think this will be my lost post on the topic of Christmas! Remember a manger without a cross,or a cross without an empty tomb is meaningless!
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
I love Christmas because.... Christmas Part II
- I love the wonder of the season, and that God(the maker of the universe) loved me so much that he came from heaven to dwell among sinners.- that he wanted me to be forgiven and live forever with him! That God had it in his perfect plan to become flesh and to be the atonement for sin through the shedding of his blood!
- I love how my family enjoys each other during this season and the laughter we share!
- I love how no one keeps track of what time it is.
- I love the music that is played at Christmas!
- I love all the programs at church during Christmas
- I love shopping and expressing my love for family and friends.
- I love that are dozens of Christmas movies are shown on TV.
- I love Christmas trees and manger scenes.
- I love the food and the smells of Christmas time.
- Most of all I love that Christmas is just part of the Gospel story, because a manger without a cross, and a cross without an empty tomb is meaningless!
If you are reading then, let me know what you love about Christmas time! Merry Christmas a bit early!
Friday, December 07, 2007
Sent to me via e-mail!
Sir Isaac Newton once said...in the absence of any proof, the thumb alone would convince me that Jesus lives and is not dead. Nothing in nature rivals the hand's combination...of agility, sensitivity, and sensation. Just as artists have tried to visualize the face of Jesus Christ, I try to visualize His hands through the various stages of His life. I imagine His hands as an infant, soft as a powder puff. I imagine His hands as a carpenter, callused and rough. I imagine the healing hands of God's Son, He could have healed everyone at once, but He preferred touching them one by one. I imagine His hands on the cross and what it was like, for those beautiful healing hands to be pierced with a spike. His weight hung from them, releasing his blood for all to see. Is there a sadder sight than that of the Son of God hanging, dying from a tree? He suffered for us but did not complain, He arose from the dead but the scars remained. He chose to keep the scars as a symbol to everyone that our sins have been paid for by God's Son. He knows what life and suffering on earth is like, His hands prove it, with scars from the spikes. What do His hands mean to you?
Neat huh?
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
Christmas Part 1!
Here it is almost Christmas time! I love Christmas time! I love it first and foremost because I know the Christ of Christmas! The God of the universe who made the moon and stars, and he came in fleshly skin and was pleased to have all his fullness to dwell in Christ! We are told that in Col. Chapter 1! How wonderful!
Those who do not know Christ cannot know the wonder of Christmas and the gift of its celebration. Christmas is not a state of mind or even a lifting of one's spirit. The birth of Christ, and knowing him as Savior, that is what ='s christmas! If you are reading this, I hope you know Christ personally, and will celebrate him above all else because he himself is Christmas!
Saturday, November 04, 2006
We Better Believe it!
It has been far too long since I updated this site.
Eph. 3:17-18 www.crosswalk.com
so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love,
may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ,
I am ashamed to admit this, but it is not often that I consider that it is God's desire for me to grasp and believe his love for me. When we tell others we love them, we want them to believe us. As I read my Bible today it occoured to me God is the same way with his children. My Breaking Free study from Beth Moore reminded me that God's every action is motivated by love, because God is love. 1 John 4:16
Some people twist that around and make so called "love" their "god" God is love, but love is not a "god" I can come up with plenty of reasons why God might not love me, but who am I to tell the Creator who to love? That is exactly what I discovered today that I, and many other Christians do by refusing to accept or rejoice in His love! I thought today, if I can learn to take hold of God's love, it would give me an even deeper love and awe for my Lord! Let us trust his love, because He loves us if we believe it or not. I have been missing out on the greatest love of my life, because of unbelief. I want to start believing the greatest love ever known. How about you?



