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Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Between Yesterday and Today....Blah...

Today I feel like I wish I had just stayed in bed and slept all day. Maybe, it is the nightmare I had that my Mom's cancer came back, and woke up with this sense of doom in my gut. Maybe it is the sore throat I woke up with. Maybe it is because I lashed out @ mom, for no reason, and feel tired, but can give no justifiable reason for the ongoing worn out state I have seen on and off in the last three weeks. Maybe it is because my home health could not come because of flooding. I am angry at myself, because I'm so blessed, and others are facing such suffering, and I'm so selfish. Mostly what I don't get is how yesterday I could feel so well, but there is such a vast difference between yesterday and today! Sometimes I feel like such a hypocrite, but I have to trust that God understands me, and will forgive me for today, and be thankful that tomorrow will come!

4 comments:

Molly said...

So sorry you are having a "blah" day. I can't say I'm sure I agree that you're "selfish" because you're having a bad day... Sounds like you don't feel well and you're dealing with some sizable inconvenience not having your home health worker.

Glenda, saved by grace said...

This too shall pass...
♥ Glenda

Dee said...

Goodness,I think everyone including myself is suffering from an attack by satan. I have been feeling tired, having sleepless nights and just plain muddled. T.J. The sun will shine again for you soon, you have been through a tramatic experience with your mom and it takes time to recover from that. Try not to be to hard on yourself.Maybe you can find something you enjoy doing and concentrate on that for awhile. Hugs Dee

Washer Mom Val said...

May the sun shine for you tomorrow...wishing you the "feeling good" days always.