Are you still out there? Hope your weekend is going well! I need to tell you something, I've been avoiding posting, because well most of my posts are about growing with God, and in the past few months, I've been very unsure about where God is taking me. There have been painful moments, where I've been afraid to face this blog, my friends and even sometimes my family. I've been wresting with questions about who God is, and who I am, and well it has been a journey of some sleepless nights and tears. You see in relation to you, my readers, I know God loves and values you. I know he has a plan for your life, but somehow when it comes to looking in the mirror and seeing myself, there's a disconnect there, which has made me feel rather hypocritical. I thought how can I talk about God or write about him, when I'm struggling so much, and learning so much about the misconceptions I have had concerning God. Coupled with the thought I've failed every test of faith God has given me over the last few months. I am not some super christian, I'm just a 29 year old lady trying to figure things out who happens to know that knowing Christ has made my life worth living. So I'm going to tell you some things God is showing me, that I'm thankful for. No teaching preaching lesson. Just where I am, and maybe just maybe it will mean something to you.
- God cares about ME.
- God's plans for me are good.
- God really says I am lovable
- God does not look at me like others might
- God wants me to enjoy him. And are you ready for this, I think the God of the universe might maybe actually enjoy me... I admit that one is super hard to swallow... I know these things sound rather simple, and in fact they are so simple that I wonder if most Christians, maybe me most of all see them as nothing more than sing song phases. After all as an adult we are told to embrace more complex truths, but maybe where we go wrong is that we don't take the time to embrace the beauty that maybe simplicity is what makes things profound. What simple truths are you learning or relearning?