Friday, August 23, 2013
True confession... Sometimes I feel left behind.. Not spiritually really... Let me explain. Recently I told a friend not to forget that God had not left her out of the puzzle. Little did I know, those words were just as much mine for the taking as they were for her. Many of my dear friends are full time ministry, and I would never make light of demands and struggles that accompany such a role, but at times I'd be lying if said, part of me was not struggling with the idea that everyone I know is living out their purpose in life, and I'm left wondering what's next Lord. I love working with Choices, I must I have been there volunteering since 06 and yet I can't shake the sense of restlessness I have been feeling as of late, that there is more out there for me to pursue. Until now I have not gone public with these struggles. I feel guilty for desiring more. I have a great life. A great family... Everyone is not called to be a position of leadership like Moses, I know that my gift is not in leadership. I suppose mostly as I see people going in different directions over the years, I fear that they will outgrown my friendship and leave me behind, since my path looks very different from theirs, and at times it is isolating to me. I pray for my friends to live full lives and to be content in where God has placed them. it is good to be reminded that I can be a partner to them in their various ministries. Perhaps that is part of the ministry God has for me to pour into those who are always pouring themselves out for the sake of others. I don't really know, but I know that God has a plan for every life, and if we are honest, we are all seeking to either live out that purpose, or trying to fill the void of not living it. We are a work in progress. I/we must remember that it is a privilege to be part of God's master plan, and his plan is not ever incomplete. He has invited us to be a piece in this beautiful puzzle called life! So if you and I are ever temped to believe he has forgotten one of his children, or left them behind, remember with me that as we seek to unwrap his plans for us that He never leaves his work or puzzle incomplete. The puzzle is always to be a reflection of The Creator... Phil. 1:6 "He who began a good work in you, will carry it to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."