Thursday, December 22, 2011
from PinterestOn January 13th, 2011 I posted about a list of blogs topics I hoped to cover... Find that post here Truth be told, this has not been my most creative or productive year in blogland, but tonight I will cover one on my topic list. "When Believing Is Hard" Normally by this time, I would have written several Christmas themed posts, but life has happened. Let me just get this out of the way... Yesterday it was officially confirmed that my mom has cancer for the 5th time in her life. I won't go into major details here except to say that she will have 24 chemo for 5 days starting Tues after Christmas. God has been preparing for me for a couple weeks now, and I'm at peace, and we are very hopeful. I have laid my Issac on the altar, and I am surrendered until the Lord! It has taken a long time to get here. Faith is choosing to trust and submit to his plan, Knowing He is loving and Good. In first John it says there is no darkness in him at all! Faith is saying I love You Lord, and I am yours no matter what! Faith is I'll trust you regardless of how I feel, because You're God, and I'm not. Am I confused? Yes! Do I have moments where it scares me? Yes! Do I wonder what God is doing? yes! Do I wish there were some other way for God's purpose to be fulfilled? OH SO MUCH! But I love the Lord, because He first loved me! Because He lives I can face tomorrow, and if you know the Prince Of Peace, you can too! Romans 4:20 @ www. crosswalk.com "Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God." Abraham knew his situation looked less than promising. He knew the odds biologically were not favorable, but He chose trust. Did he stumble and sin, yes, but his faith was evident. Do we allow our trials to draw us to God our cause us to drift from him? Wresting with belief is hard, but something God is showing me is if we have faith as a mustard seed, He will grow into something far greater. May Romans 4:20 be true of you and me! Thanks for your prayers for mom and my family!