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Friday, August 23, 2013

Left behind not the movie...

True confession...  Sometimes I feel left behind..  Not spiritually really...  Let me explain.  Recently I told a friend not to forget that God had not left her out of the puzzle.  Little did I know, those words were just as much mine for the taking as they were for her.  Many of my dear friends are full time ministry, and I would never make light of demands and struggles that accompany such a role, but at times I'd be lying if said, part of me was not struggling with the idea that everyone I know is living out their purpose in life, and I'm left wondering what's next Lord.  I love working with Choices, I must I have been there volunteering since 06 and yet I can't shake the sense of restlessness I have been feeling as of late, that there is more out there for me to pursue.  Until now I have not gone public with these struggles.  I feel guilty for desiring more.  I have a great life. A great family...  Everyone is not called to be a position of leadership like Moses, I know that my gift is not in leadership.  I suppose mostly as I see people going in different directions over the years, I fear that they will outgrown my friendship and leave me behind, since my path looks very different from theirs, and at times it is isolating to me.  I pray for my friends to live full lives and to be content in where God has placed them.  it is good to be reminded that I can be a partner to them in their various ministries.  Perhaps that is part of the ministry God has for me to pour into those who are always pouring themselves out for the sake of others.  I don't really know, but I know that God has a plan for every life, and if we are honest, we are all seeking to either live out that purpose, or trying to fill the void of not living it.  We are a work in progress.  I/we must remember that it is a privilege to be part of God's master plan, and his plan is not ever incomplete.  He has invited us to be a piece in this beautiful puzzle called life!  So if you and I are ever temped to believe he has forgotten one of his children, or left them behind, remember with me that as we seek to unwrap his plans for us that He never leaves his work or puzzle incomplete.  The puzzle is always to be a reflection of The Creator...  Phil. 1:6 "He who began a good work in you, will carry it to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."


Dee said...

Your honesty always touches my heart. You have not been given an easy road physically. But you have a bright never knows what lies ahead...I feel you will be thrilled to see the glory of Gods blessings upon your future. As my walking becomes more difficult...I see my friends moving on and able to do things I would love to do. But they will always be my friends.

Anonymous said...

I understand exactly how you feel, Teej. I have the same questions about my purpose quite often. As usual, we are on the same page and therefore able to understand what each other is feeling and experiencing. Great post! Thank you for your honesty. It's always so refreshing.
Love you,

Jennifer Dougan said...

Hi TJ,

I like that your heart is to serve and follow God. He'll lead and guide you, I'm convinced of it. Often times it's just be seeing your strengths, your passions, and where you see a need that needs to be filled. Ask him, seek it out, journal, and then step into it. :)

Re your comment on my post "Three-Tiered Living: It's Worth It,"
hop in! You can do it, in humility and by actively seeking the Holy Spirit's leading and voice. We can only reflect out what we are putting in though. Convicting, huh? I gotta grab my Bible today, in fact...)

Jennifer Dougan